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Part Of Me

Diary entry #7 December 2, 2012 “What to do, what to do. Matt has my heart, but I clearly don’t have his. He’s told me. We started out so perfectly and it really is spiraling downhill from here. “I’ll never hurt you.” “I think I’m falling in love with you” “I’ll treat you how you … Continue reading

Getting Better

Diary entry #6 November 29, 2012 “Things have brightened up, I’m feeling better… most of the time anyways. Truly I no longer cut, I no longer purge, I no longer cry myself to sleep and imagine and contemplate suicide. I thank marijuana for this, as awful as that statement may be… I do. I began occasionally … Continue reading

So Close

*TRIGGER WARNING* Diary Entry #5 Oct. 28, 2012 “I’m so close to giving up. I’m happy, then I’m sad again. Matt is the only thing that brightens my day. But at the end of the day all we have is who we are. So a fat, stupid, worthless, lifeless, uncaring, bitchy stubborn waste of space. … Continue reading

Fighting my Demons

Diary Entry #3 Oct. 7, 2012 “It’s Thanksgiving and I have yet to find something I’m thankful for. My life is tumbling out of control. I’m a mess but I refuse to allow anybody to know. Each day that passes I find more reasons for me to question my exsistance. Perhaps suicide is the only … Continue reading

Diary Entry #2

****TRIGGER WARNING**** After reading the diary entry from 2008, I quickly found a pen and wrote everything that just came to me. Oct. 4, 2012 “To read what I wrote over 4 years ago, saddens me deeply. I was just as confused back then as I am now. I was 10 years old when I … Continue reading

Im Sorry

I havent blogged for nearly two months, and for that I truly am sorry. If anybody had wondered about this blog or wondered where I’ve been or how I’m doing, I will catch you all up on what I’ve been up to since I’ve last blogged. Even though I havent been blogging, I’ve been writing … Continue reading

Giving Up

So lately I’ve been really distant with everybody. I don’t text anyone… I don’t phone anyone… my sister and I don’t have heart to hearts like we used to… I’ve lost my best friend. But tonight I assumed, stupid me, that maybe my best friend, Tiela and I could reunite and become friends again. Even the … Continue reading

State of Mind

I haven’t blogged for a while, and for that I’m sorry. I’ve been attempting to fix myself for the past little while. Lately I’ve slipped back into my depression, I’ve always had mood swings, I’ve had them since before I can remember. I’m so tired of my usual routined life, I need a get away… a vacation, … Continue reading